Hot Summer Daze

I can't remember when it has been as hot as it is this early in the summer. This almost makes me what to move north. I used to love summer as a kid, even up until recently really. I just cannot take the heat anymore. It was so hot today at 9am, that by the time I got home I was literally in a daze. It is the perfect time to be in Sea Isle City, New Jersey. The ocean is so beautiful and the beach is the place to be this time of year. There is hardly anyone there and for the most part, I would have the beach all to myself.

I am home now with my granddaughters and there is no better place to be. I do feel like I already have gone crazy, with all the screaming and yelling an eight month old can do, and all of the "will you read me a story, can I read you a story, will you paint my nails, let's play Barbie, lets color, lets paint and about a million other requests that might come from a 7 year old. Oh, they are great, living with them is almost more than an old granny like me really needs, but they sure do make ya smile when your down or run to get something for ya when your back or legs ache.

So when I start to miss the ocean breeze and the soft sands of the beach, I can always just grab a kid and either get drooled on, pooped on, painted on, or have my ear talked off about Justin Beber, yes, my 7 year old has developed her first crush, and maybe these hot summer days will not keep me in a daze at all.

Walking in Faith in hopes of a Peaceful Life

I am back, once again. After the surgery, and the passing of my father, among other things that have happened in my life the last couple of years, I am back in hopes of having a nice peaceful life here with all my friends. I hope that nothing else happens that takes me away from my friends on this site again. I really want to settle down here and get to know how all things work and catch up with all of my friends and what has been happening in their lives. I miss so many of you. All the times that Mickey cheered me up, and all the great motherly advice from Jenny. I have missed everyone so much. Jean, and her beautiful pics and her recommendations of some great books. Well I am back, and so glad to be. Whatever may pop up again, hopefully I will be strong enough to deal with the Spirit guiding me down my path of hope and peace.

Bless Misery

We usually don't know why something has happened in our lives, and we won't know until time has passed and we take a backwards glance.
Bless a thing and it will bless you, curse a thing and it will curse you. Blessing something that is bad in your life is a spiritual surrender that can change the present circumstance in your life. In everything that seems bad, there is a blessing, we just have to find it. We all need to know the difference in things we need and things we want. Make peace with the knowledge that you can't have everything you want, because it's more important to get everything we need. We feel content when we have everything we need. Trust your heart and ask yourself what it is that you truly need to make you happy. It's only after we realize what we need that we can actually grasp the creative energy necessary to manifest them in our lives.What you need, you attract like a lover. Nothing is accidental, it happens according to your needs.

It's your life...accept it.

Accepting and blessing our present circumstance can work miracles in our lives. How can we ever expect more outta life it we don't accept what we have now? Don't resist life, accept it, it will soften your soul and you will receive all the goodness and abundance that the Spirit has waiting for you. Just try it, look around and just see what you do have to be grateful for. I promise you have alot more than you ever realized.

I'm Back

I sure have missed everyone. I am able to be on this computer for awhile now without too much pain. It is really worth it though, I love to visit my friends and see how their lives are going and how they have been. I hope to share more of my life with you all as I get better and better. Of course I had a wonderful visit from my dear friend Nancy and her sweet husband Carl. Those two are truly great friends in my life, the best and I love them dearly.

I am glad to be back and I am excited to read and learn about all my friends here. I sure have missed you all. And Mickey, you just always brighten my day. Thank you.

missing child

My sixteen year old daughter, Holly Gould, has been missing since last night. She was last seen at the Carbondale Assembly of God at 2135 W 51st Street in Tulsa, OK during evening services. We have not been able to reach her by phone or find out where she is. A police report has been filed but the police are considering her a runaway. Holly is approximately 5'7" tall and weighs between 115 and 120 pounds. She has dark brown wavy long hair past her shoulders, with a blonde streak on the right side. She has hazel eyes tending towards brown and an olive-toned complexion. She was last seen wearing jeans and a light grey Aeropostale hoodie. If you have any information, please contact me at (918) 446-4323 or call the Tulsa Police Department.

The Best Friend I Ever Had

When I was very young I lost my daddy to divorce, and not long after I lost my mother to marriage and a new family. I really didn't realize what was going on in my life, I thought that something was wrong with me, afterall, my step father told me daily how stupid and ugly I was. Well I muddled through life, all my life just looking for love. I never found it. not until I was 47 years old.

I fell ill about 6 years ago. I could not work and my 12 year old daughter and I eventually became homeless. It was hard, but the hardest part is that I didn't have a real friend to turn to. OH I have my mother and brother, but they just as soon forget that I existed as to deal with me at all. I prayed to God for an angel. For someone that would really care. I really just gave up on people, I really did. When I got sick, even more people took advantage of me. So I just stayed away from people and I turned to the internet and began writing my book.

As most parents, I was having alittle problem with one of my girls and decided to ask Yahoo Answers, just to get a variety of suggestions. At this point in time, I really needed some different kinds of advice or ideas, nothing I was doing seemed to be working. So I ask my question ans submitted it to Answers and waited. It wasn't long at all and there was a very nice suggestion and a woman that wanted to know if she could email me or send an instant message. Her advice and a bit of her own story was really sincere, I could tell this person had a good heart. So she emailed me and soon we were on instant messaging with each other about every day.

That question that I ask, saved me. No, she didn't solve my daugther problem. She came into my life and brought such happiness to me. She was there for me whenever I needed a friend to talk to, she praised me when I did something good, but she also would let me have it if I didn't do what I should be doing. I need a very major surgery on my spine, total reconstuctive surgery, and I had to quit smoking first. Well I had smoked for 35 years, two packs a day, so I was like, on way. I never dreamed I would be able to quit, I didn't even wanna try. But she just got on me and let me know that she would get me if I didn't. She, being a non-smoker, still had the patience and understanding that I needed to make me strong. Then before I knew it, I was telling myself I have to quit for Nan. She will be so disappointed in me, so I worked extra hard at it. I quit and started back a couple of time, but thanks to my wonderful, caring friend I was able to finally quit smoking.

Everyone needs a rock that is as soft as satin to lean on sometimes. Yes, we all have God, He is always here for us no matter what. But God knew I needed love, real love from someone. Someone that would love me a good honest person, that would appreciate me for me, sick, poor, it didn't matter. Well Nancy is that person. And it is not because I am special that I got such a great friend, it's because she is the special one. She is so awesome, I remember once, I was suppose to meet a man, a friend that was another IM friend, and I was so nervous about it, we were only friends, but that is scary to me. Nancy and her husband Carl came all the way from Ill. to TN to be here with me to meet him. That was the first time I ever go to meet her. As soon as I saw her I saw the beauty of kindness illuminating around her. She truly had an aura of kindness glowing around her.

I had just started talking to her about Oct.2008 and met her in April 2009. She is so kind. She brought me a quilt that she had made from the scraps of all the other quilts she had made, that is the most beautiful quilt I have ever seen, and it is not like other quilts, it has a warm soothing safe comfort that no other quilt will ever have. When you wrap up in this quilt, you feel pure love.

Today is her birthday. I wanted to share her with everyone else. I don't think it is fair for me to keep her all to myself, so anyone who does not already know what an awesome woman that Nancy is, please be sure to get to know her. Your life will become an abundance of joy. All you need to do is contact her through this site, and I promise you, your life be become a life that has a true friend who has an abundance of joy to share with you too. I love her, deeply. She is by far the most wonderful friend that anyone could even imagine having. She is full of love, tenderness, kindness, and honesty.

She has changed my life. Thank you Nancy, and Happy Birthday.