Sunday, November 13, 2011
More Blessings
When the police officer called the tow truck driver he asked him to take me home. The driver was more than happy to do so, I was not that far from my home when the woman bashed her car into me. He loaded up the car and I climbed into this huge tow truck, I could barely get in. By this time I was beginning to feel some really bad pain in my lower legs and feet and my right side sorta. I knew I had to go to the emergency room as soon as I got to Britt.
As we pulled up in front of my house, Britt came outside, she way crying so hard. She was so worried about me, and when she saw the car she really lost it. I lost it too. Knowing that we have no other car and that we really had no one close to drive us anywhere, the feeling of total dismay and hopelessness filled both of our hearts. What were we gonna do? The police officer told me not to worry, the woman's insurance would have to get us a rental car and Britt could get to work. But that feeling was there, we had worked so hard to pull ourselves back up after I got sick and finally were doing ok, and now this. I know that God commands us not to be afraid that He is always with us. At times like these I tend to forget that briefly. Britt was so upset that is hurt me to see her cry so hysterically, so I cried even more. She was worried about me so we went to the emergency room right then. I was feeling more and more pain. I couldn't walk so they got a wheelchair for me. They checked me all over, x-rays, cat scans and all. It seemed I was in the room for days waiting for the doctor to come in and let me go home. I was in so much pain by this time that I was really crying and getting very upset. It was all hitting me, being hurt, no car and not knowing what we were going to do about Britt getting to work. I think I crashed because I really cried hard. One of those uncontrollable crying fits that I would never let Britt see, I was doing it right in front of her. I had never broken down like that before in front of her. But she was there to comfort me. When the doctor finally came in after an eternity, he told me I had to stay the night due to a liver laceration. All I wanted to do was to go home and get in my bed, so I was even more upset. Go figure, something just had to be wrong. I finally got into the room. It was beautiful for a hospital room. It even had a sort of living room for family members in it. The baby was there too, she could not understand why nay nay could not hold her and play with her and that hurt my feelings. She was crying for me to hold her, plus she was worn out from being at the hospital all day, it was about 9pm, we got there about noon. As I finally accepted the fact that I had to stay over nite and started to relax and doz off, the surgeon came in. He told me that the laceration was not real bad and if I promised to stay in bed the next few days and not do anything, he would let me go home. I was so excited. We packed all up and headed home.
I stayed in bed for about 7 days, I had to, I couldn't walk. My feet were terribly swollen along with my knees and legs. I could make it to the bathroom, thank God, I don't do bedpans well at all.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Blessings
I try to open my door, there is smoke all around, I have no idea where it is coming from, all I know is I feel like I have to get out. The woman is still here by me asking are you ok, don't move. I push on the door, it is jammed, so I push harder and tell the woman I must get out, I see smoke. She reassures me it is just coming from the two airbags in my car that deployed as my car smashed into the one in front of me. Then I hear this other woman yelling " I don't know what happened, I am disabled. I didn't see her stop. She just suddenly stopped. I am disable, I have a bad shoulder, and &*&*&*&*&, I just didn't listen to the rest of her problems, I was thinking I just had this serious neck surgery, and my very worst fear has happened. I am praying that this metal rod and screws and metal plates are all still in place. I don't feel the pain there, but I do in my feet and legs really bad, I can barely stand. The very kind woman that first came to me was telling me to go to the hospital that I was hit very hard. I told her I thought I was fine just my feet and legs hurt and I thought I was just fine. The man in front of me was in some pain in his neck. He was an older man, and his neck seemed to be hurting him. The medics were there, they all came running over to me, the woman who helped me was yelling she could be hurt bad. They gave me a quick check and I told them I just wanted to go home and see my daughter and granddaughter, but I would go to the hospital later. They then went to check on the man.
The police officer was very kind. The shock of seeing my car totaled was almost too much for me to comprehend, our lives were ruined. Britt had no way to work, we would not survive. What was I gonna do? The police officer reassured me that the woman who hit me was at fault without any doubt and he told me I could get a rental car and her insurance would have to pay for it. That settled me some. I just wanted to get home to my daughter, I needed her. I had no one to call. No one. But Brittney called Jason and he came. He was very upset too and told me that Brittney had the baby and was walking to me where the wreck happened. I just told him to go get her because she had the baby, he was in his work truck so we could not all fit in there. The tow truck driver was there getting my car so the police officer ask him to carry me home, we had no one else to call.
I am gonna stop here, I will be back to tell you how much I am truly blessed.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Link with Amaya's picture,
Friday, June 3, 2011
Hot Summer Daze
I am home now with my granddaughters and there is no better place to be. I do feel like I already have gone crazy, with all the screaming and yelling an eight month old can do, and all of the "will you read me a story, can I read you a story, will you paint my nails, let's play Barbie, lets color, lets paint and about a million other requests that might come from a 7 year old. Oh, they are great, living with them is almost more than an old granny like me really needs, but they sure do make ya smile when your down or run to get something for ya when your back or legs ache.
So when I start to miss the ocean breeze and the soft sands of the beach, I can always just grab a kid and either get drooled on, pooped on, painted on, or have my ear talked off about Justin Beber, yes, my 7 year old has developed her first crush, and maybe these hot summer days will not keep me in a daze at all.
Monday, May 30, 2011
Walking in Faith in hopes of a Peaceful Life
Monday, January 24, 2011
Bless Misery
Bless a thing and it will bless you, curse a thing and it will curse you. Blessing something that is bad in your life is a spiritual surrender that can change the present circumstance in your life. In everything that seems bad, there is a blessing, we just have to find it. We all need to know the difference in things we need and things we want. Make peace with the knowledge that you can't have everything you want, because it's more important to get everything we need. We feel content when we have everything we need. Trust your heart and ask yourself what it is that you truly need to make you happy. It's only after we realize what we need that we can actually grasp the creative energy necessary to manifest them in our lives.What you need, you attract like a lover. Nothing is accidental, it happens according to your needs.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
It's your life...accept it.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
I'm Back
I am glad to be back and I am excited to read and learn about all my friends here. I sure have missed you all. And Mickey, you just always brighten my day. Thank you.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
missing child
My sixteen year old daughter, Holly Gould, has been missing since last night. She was last seen at the Carbondale Assembly of God at 2135 W 51st Street in Tulsa, OK during evening services. We have not been able to reach her by phone or find out where she is. A police report has been filed but the police are considering her a runaway. Holly is approximately 5'7" tall and weighs between 115 and 120 pounds. She has dark brown wavy long hair past her shoulders, with a blonde streak on the right side. She has hazel eyes tending towards brown and an olive-toned complexion. She was last seen wearing jeans and a light grey Aeropostale hoodie. If you have any information, please contact me at (918) 446-4323 or call the Tulsa Police Department.
Monday, August 31, 2009
The Best Friend I Ever Had
When I was very young I lost my daddy to divorce, and not long after I lost my mother to marriage and a new family. I really didn't realize what was going on in my life, I thought that something was wrong with me, afterall, my step father told me daily how stupid and ugly I was. Well I muddled through life, all my life just looking for love. I never found it. not until I was 47 years old.
I fell ill about 6 years ago. I could not work and my 12 year old daughter and I eventually became homeless. It was hard, but the hardest part is that I didn't have a real friend to turn to. OH I have my mother and brother, but they just as soon forget that I existed as to deal with me at all. I prayed to God for an angel. For someone that would really care. I really just gave up on people, I really did. When I got sick, even more people took advantage of me. So I just stayed away from people and I turned to the internet and began writing my book.
As most parents, I was having alittle problem with one of my girls and decided to ask Yahoo Answers, just to get a variety of suggestions. At this point in time, I really needed some different kinds of advice or ideas, nothing I was doing seemed to be working. So I ask my question ans submitted it to Answers and waited. It wasn't long at all and there was a very nice suggestion and a woman that wanted to know if she could email me or send an instant message. Her advice and a bit of her own story was really sincere, I could tell this person had a good heart. So she emailed me and soon we were on instant messaging with each other about every day.
That question that I ask, saved me. No, she didn't solve my daugther problem. She came into my life and brought such happiness to me. She was there for me whenever I needed a friend to talk to, she praised me when I did something good, but she also would let me have it if I didn't do what I should be doing. I need a very major surgery on my spine, total reconstuctive surgery, and I had to quit smoking first. Well I had smoked for 35 years, two packs a day, so I was like, on way. I never dreamed I would be able to quit, I didn't even wanna try. But she just got on me and let me know that she would get me if I didn't. She, being a non-smoker, still had the patience and understanding that I needed to make me strong. Then before I knew it, I was telling myself I have to quit for Nan. She will be so disappointed in me, so I worked extra hard at it. I quit and started back a couple of time, but thanks to my wonderful, caring friend I was able to finally quit smoking.
Everyone needs a rock that is as soft as satin to lean on sometimes. Yes, we all have God, He is always here for us no matter what. But God knew I needed love, real love from someone. Someone that would love me a good honest person, that would appreciate me for me, sick, poor, it didn't matter. Well Nancy is that person. And it is not because I am special that I got such a great friend, it's because she is the special one. She is so awesome, I remember once, I was suppose to meet a man, a friend that was another IM friend, and I was so nervous about it, we were only friends, but that is scary to me. Nancy and her husband Carl came all the way from Ill. to TN to be here with me to meet him. That was the first time I ever go to meet her. As soon as I saw her I saw the beauty of kindness illuminating around her. She truly had an aura of kindness glowing around her.
I had just started talking to her about Oct.2008 and met her in April 2009. She is so kind. She brought me a quilt that she had made from the scraps of all the other quilts she had made, that is the most beautiful quilt I have ever seen, and it is not like other quilts, it has a warm soothing safe comfort that no other quilt will ever have. When you wrap up in this quilt, you feel pure love.
Today is her birthday. I wanted to share her with everyone else. I don't think it is fair for me to keep her all to myself, so anyone who does not already know what an awesome woman that Nancy is, please be sure to get to know her. Your life will become an abundance of joy. All you need to do is contact her through this site, and I promise you, your life be become a life that has a true friend who has an abundance of joy to share with you too. I love her, deeply. She is by far the most wonderful friend that anyone could even imagine having. She is full of love, tenderness, kindness, and honesty.
She has changed my life. Thank you Nancy, and Happy Birthday.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
It's your gift....open it.
As a child you had such dreams of the wonderful things you were going to be when you grew up, an actress, a singer, a doctor, lawyer, an airplane pilot, an artist, or a police officer. yes, so many things intrigued our young mind. Wasn't it fantastic?
There were also so many other gifts that God had to offer us, that are so awesome and they are our gifts, if we accept them. The gifts that would open the door for us to discover or rediscover your creativity and talents.
But where do you begin, how do we know what our gifts are? By offering an open heart and a willingness to serve you have begun the journey to discovering your talents and creativity.
We are offered by the Spirit to bring life to a work of art. Whether it be a painting, writing a novel, quilting, photography, or baking a batch of cookies from an old family recipe. It is a gift from the Spirit, yelling out, hey I am here, bring me to life, make me come alive. Almighty God offers the gift and it is up to us to become the bearer of the Works or to refuse.
Of course we can refuse. The first and greatest gift that God gave us is free will. Not even the angels in Heaven have free will. They saw the Glory and chose the passion of serving over free will. And this make us even higher than the angels. We had both free will and the passion to serve. Now our biggest problem is being left to our own deciets and devices.
Oh yes, we can say no. When the Spirit offers, we can say no, not right now, life it just to caotic right now, I just cannot take on anymore at this time, I cannot get it together enough right now, find someone else. The Spirit will. So the Great Creator moves on until a willing artist with the needed open heart and passion to serve accepts the precious offer to become the creator that will give birth to the gift that has been given them.
Remember, to begin our paths to the creativity of our lives offered by The Great Creator is an open heart and the willingness to accept the gift offered to us.
So .... when we say "no" the way it goes is your heartbroken, bewildered and furious that when you see that old high shcool friend that went on to college and became the nurse that you always wanted to be, but just couldn't get it together at the time to go to school, or that new fashion design that is exclusive in all the fashion magazines that you have still on the drawing board unfinished because you just couldn't get it just right. And when you see that best selling novel that is practically the same story that you and your muse have been writing in your head and mapping our for two years, but never pulled out that laptop to begin writing. Maybe your flipping through the pages of the latest Rachael Ray magazine and you see an award winning recipe that has been in your family for years, but you have been trying for years to perfect it so it would be just right.
So...when you used your free will and said "no" I am not ready find someone else, Spirit moved on and found the one that had the open heart and the willingness to serve and accept the gift given them, that they were to create and share their with the rest of the world.
But you are crushed that someone else brought to life the creative idea that is so similar to yours that your are truly freaked. Each of use came into being to carry on the re-creation of the world through our gifts offered to us by The Great Creator.
It isn't your mind, it is the Divine Mind. before anything else exist on earth, it exist fully formed in Spirit.
The bottom line is that the Work must be brought forth. The Great Creator does not play favorites. The Spirit only comes once for each Work seeking creative expressions through you, then moves on. If you don't do it someone else will. So, when a bolt of lightning or a subtle nudge hits you, pay attention. It only exist in your mind, realize that the Spirit will guide you one your way so you will be able to connect with the creative energy you need to create the gift that the Great Creator just gave to you to create.
But only for an infinitesimal proprietary moment, just long enough for you to have the willingness to open your heart, have the passion to serve, and accept the assignment and give thanks.
Isn't it absolutely wonderful? You can see the creation completely finished. It takes your breathe away.
For God...for yourself, say YES. You do have many, many, gifts from God, just take to time to open them.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Provisions
PROVISION
"GIVE US THIS DAY OUR DAILY BREAD"
IN THE NAME OF JESUS. I CONFESS WITH THE PSALMIST DAVID, I HAVE NOT SEEN THE RIGHTEOUS FORSAKEN, NOR HIS SEED BEGGING BREAD.
FATHER,I THANK YOU FOR FOOD, CLOTHING AND SHELTER. IN THE NAME OF JESUS, I HAVE STOPPED BEING PERPETUALLY UNEASY ( ANXIOUS AND WORRIED) ABOUT MY LIFE, WHAT I SHALL EAT AND WHAT I SHALL DRINK, OR ABOUT MY BODY, WHAT I SHALL PUT ON. MY LIFE IS GREATER THAN FOOD (( IN QUALITY)) AND THE BODY (( FAR ABOVE AND MORE EXCELLANT)) THAN CLOTHING.
THE BREAD OF IDLENESS (( GOSSIP, DISCONTENT AND SELF PITY)) I WILL NOT EAT. IT IS YOU, FATHER, WHO WILL LIBERALLY SUPPLY (( FILL TO THE FULL)) MY EVERY NEED ACCORDING TO YOUR RICHES IN GLORY IN CHRIST JESUS.
IN THE NAME OF JESUS, I SHALL NOT LIVE BY BREAD ALONE, BUT BY EVERY WORD THAT PROCEEDS FROM THE MOUTH OF GOD. YOUR WORDS WERE FOUND, AND I DID EAT THEM, AND YOUR WORD WAS TO ME A JOY AND THE REJOICING OF MY HEART.
AND THE WORD BECAME FLESH, AND DWELT AMONG US. JESUS, YOU ARE THE BREAD OF LIFE---- THAT GIVES ME LIFE, THE LIVING BREAD.
THANK-YOU, FATHER, IN THE NAME OF JESUS, FOR SPIRITUAL BREAD--- MANNA FROM HEAVEN.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Falling Behind When I Should be Springing Ahead
Well, I am going to get busy, I have alot of writing to do. I need to at least get alittle caught up before the surgery. Talk to you soon.
Cheerfully Lorri
Friday, April 3, 2009
Friends Are Great
I would love for eveyone on this internet to be lucky enough to have them as friends. Nancy made me a beautiful quilt, it is my most prized possession. I will always have a part of her, I hope I always have her in my life, and Carl too. He is an awesome fella. Friends are a very important part of my life. I have really never had friends like these two, I have two more from Yahoo 360 that are absolutely wonderful and it is a dream of mine to meet them one day also. Mickey and Jennie are also true and great friends to have.
I would have never imagined that the internet could bring me such joy. It brought me great friends.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Get it Together
I am not going to get anything accomplished if I don't get it together. I need to do lesson one again. I need to find and clear my work area, and organize the things I need. I have all the things I need, except organization. I will spend tomarrow organizing my home. Then I will organize the computer to be the way I need it to be. But the most important thing is by time with God. I must have my morning and evening time. I will ask Him to guide me on this journey. I feel that everything in life is a journey now. It is my life. My new life. The rest of my life. And I is gonna be a great ride, so I must prepare and be organized to prevent failure. And only God can lead me and teach me the Right way to do it.
I have a new journey tomorrow. So I need to go rest for awhile. And also, this journey will start smoke free. oooooog that is alittle scary for me. But with God's strenght it will be done.
God Is so awsome.
Site Searching
Then I went to B/net to see how things were going there. I am really trying to find a support group for writers. I was invited to join the Artist's Way Circle. They seem ok, but everyone in that group is reading a book called The Artist Way, and I do not have the book to join in the treads. I think I just need to stick to my HtTS threads. I have met really nice people there and they are very helpful and honest about my work. Most importantly we are all taking the same course so we understand what each other is going through. So far that has given me more inititive that any other groups. I went and searched and found I am just fine right where I am.
I am ready for lesson 5. I am excited about starting it. I have already read some. I need to get some organization developement going on in my life. I have always been a whirlwind, but I do need to make myself an area to work in. I am working at my kitchen table and I have nothing organized. My Bible study, My finances and just everything is on this table. So that is my next project before I go back to lesson 5. I wish I had a desk with drawers and shelves. Maybe one day. So now I need to figure out where to put eveything. That's gonna be a blast.
Well until next time, keep writing, keep that muse playing and listen. Pray for me.
Friday, February 27, 2009
My World in Word
To earn her wings a teenage fairy who despises humans and their world must become human herself to help an ugly duckling find her true beauty.
That is the sentence I am using for this one idea. In lesson 4 we had to make sentences for three of our ideas. I believe this one is the best I have so far. I am still working on my first idea. It is going to be a murder mystery/ghost?? story. I haven't decided about the ghost yet. But I am going to spend tomarrow revising that sentence, it is much too long right now. I am having trouble getting enough information that makes the sentence good without it being too long. But with the help of some of the other students I may be able to work something wonderful out tomarrow. Just too exhausted to work on it tonight.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
I have started a course on writing. I have always wanted to write and now that I am disabled and have lots of time, I am going to write a novel, maybe even more. I had no idea where to start, but searched and sound a course and I really like it so far. I am only on he fourth lesson, but it seems to be going well. I am having alittle trouble with this lesson. We have to write sentences for three ideas that we came up with in the last lesson. Well I have one sentence for one idea, so yes, I am alittle behind. But I will get it done. I have a couple of "classmates" that work together with me, so we do help each other out. I don't know alot about writing, so I hope I can be of help to them too.
Went shopping today and spent alittle on myself, which felt good but yet I felt guilty too. I never spend money on myself. My children are grown so it is about time I started doing a few things for myself. I had fun. Well, gotta get to work. Goodbye until tomarrow.