The Best Friend I Ever Had

When I was very young I lost my daddy to divorce, and not long after I lost my mother to marriage and a new family. I really didn't realize what was going on in my life, I thought that something was wrong with me, afterall, my step father told me daily how stupid and ugly I was. Well I muddled through life, all my life just looking for love. I never found it. not until I was 47 years old.

I fell ill about 6 years ago. I could not work and my 12 year old daughter and I eventually became homeless. It was hard, but the hardest part is that I didn't have a real friend to turn to. OH I have my mother and brother, but they just as soon forget that I existed as to deal with me at all. I prayed to God for an angel. For someone that would really care. I really just gave up on people, I really did. When I got sick, even more people took advantage of me. So I just stayed away from people and I turned to the internet and began writing my book.

As most parents, I was having alittle problem with one of my girls and decided to ask Yahoo Answers, just to get a variety of suggestions. At this point in time, I really needed some different kinds of advice or ideas, nothing I was doing seemed to be working. So I ask my question ans submitted it to Answers and waited. It wasn't long at all and there was a very nice suggestion and a woman that wanted to know if she could email me or send an instant message. Her advice and a bit of her own story was really sincere, I could tell this person had a good heart. So she emailed me and soon we were on instant messaging with each other about every day.

That question that I ask, saved me. No, she didn't solve my daugther problem. She came into my life and brought such happiness to me. She was there for me whenever I needed a friend to talk to, she praised me when I did something good, but she also would let me have it if I didn't do what I should be doing. I need a very major surgery on my spine, total reconstuctive surgery, and I had to quit smoking first. Well I had smoked for 35 years, two packs a day, so I was like, on way. I never dreamed I would be able to quit, I didn't even wanna try. But she just got on me and let me know that she would get me if I didn't. She, being a non-smoker, still had the patience and understanding that I needed to make me strong. Then before I knew it, I was telling myself I have to quit for Nan. She will be so disappointed in me, so I worked extra hard at it. I quit and started back a couple of time, but thanks to my wonderful, caring friend I was able to finally quit smoking.

Everyone needs a rock that is as soft as satin to lean on sometimes. Yes, we all have God, He is always here for us no matter what. But God knew I needed love, real love from someone. Someone that would love me a good honest person, that would appreciate me for me, sick, poor, it didn't matter. Well Nancy is that person. And it is not because I am special that I got such a great friend, it's because she is the special one. She is so awesome, I remember once, I was suppose to meet a man, a friend that was another IM friend, and I was so nervous about it, we were only friends, but that is scary to me. Nancy and her husband Carl came all the way from Ill. to TN to be here with me to meet him. That was the first time I ever go to meet her. As soon as I saw her I saw the beauty of kindness illuminating around her. She truly had an aura of kindness glowing around her.

I had just started talking to her about Oct.2008 and met her in April 2009. She is so kind. She brought me a quilt that she had made from the scraps of all the other quilts she had made, that is the most beautiful quilt I have ever seen, and it is not like other quilts, it has a warm soothing safe comfort that no other quilt will ever have. When you wrap up in this quilt, you feel pure love.

Today is her birthday. I wanted to share her with everyone else. I don't think it is fair for me to keep her all to myself, so anyone who does not already know what an awesome woman that Nancy is, please be sure to get to know her. Your life will become an abundance of joy. All you need to do is contact her through this site, and I promise you, your life be become a life that has a true friend who has an abundance of joy to share with you too. I love her, deeply. She is by far the most wonderful friend that anyone could even imagine having. She is full of love, tenderness, kindness, and honesty.

She has changed my life. Thank you Nancy, and Happy Birthday.

It's your gift....open it.

As a child you had such dreams of the wonderful things you were going to be when you grew up, an actress, a singer, a doctor, lawyer, an airplane pilot, an artist, or a police officer. yes, so many things intrigued our young mind. Wasn't it fantastic?

There were also so many other gifts that God had to offer us, that are so awesome and they are our gifts, if we accept them. The gifts that would open the door for us to discover or rediscover your creativity and talents.

But where do you begin, how do we know what our gifts are? By offering an open heart and a willingness to serve you have begun the journey to discovering your talents and creativity.

We are offered by the Spirit to bring life to a work of art. Whether it be a painting, writing a novel, quilting, photography, or baking a batch of cookies from an old family recipe. It is a gift from the Spirit, yelling out, hey I am here, bring me to life, make me come alive. Almighty God offers the gift and it is up to us to become the bearer of the Works or to refuse.

Of course we can refuse. The first and greatest gift that God gave us is free will. Not even the angels in Heaven have free will. They saw the Glory and chose the passion of serving over free will. And this make us even higher than the angels. We had both free will and the passion to serve. Now our biggest problem is being left to our own deciets and devices.

Oh yes, we can say no. When the Spirit offers, we can say no, not right now, life it just to caotic right now, I just cannot take on anymore at this time, I cannot get it together enough right now, find someone else. The Spirit will. So the Great Creator moves on until a willing artist with the needed open heart and passion to serve accepts the precious offer to become the creator that will give birth to the gift that has been given them.

Remember, to begin our paths to the creativity of our lives offered by The Great Creator is an open heart and the willingness to accept the gift offered to us.

So .... when we say "no" the way it goes is your heartbroken, bewildered and furious that when you see that old high shcool friend that went on to college and became the nurse that you always wanted to be, but just couldn't get it together at the time to go to school, or that new fashion design that is exclusive in all the fashion magazines that you have still on the drawing board unfinished because you just couldn't get it just right. And when you see that best selling novel that is practically the same story that you and your muse have been writing in your head and mapping our for two years, but never pulled out that laptop to begin writing. Maybe your flipping through the pages of the latest Rachael Ray magazine and you see an award winning recipe that has been in your family for years, but you have been trying for years to perfect it so it would be just right.

So...when you used your free will and said "no" I am not ready find someone else, Spirit moved on and found the one that had the open heart and the willingness to serve and accept the gift given them, that they were to create and share their with the rest of the world.

But you are crushed that someone else brought to life the creative idea that is so similar to yours that your are truly freaked. Each of use came into being to carry on the re-creation of the world through our gifts offered to us by The Great Creator.

It isn't your mind, it is the Divine Mind. before anything else exist on earth, it exist fully formed in Spirit.

The bottom line is that the Work must be brought forth. The Great Creator does not play favorites. The Spirit only comes once for each Work seeking creative expressions through you, then moves on. If you don't do it someone else will. So, when a bolt of lightning or a subtle nudge hits you, pay attention. It only exist in your mind, realize that the Spirit will guide you one your way so you will be able to connect with the creative energy you need to create the gift that the Great Creator just gave to you to create.

But only for an infinitesimal proprietary moment, just long enough for you to have the willingness to open your heart, have the passion to serve, and accept the assignment and give thanks.

Isn't it absolutely wonderful? You can see the creation completely finished. It takes your breathe away.

For God...for yourself, say YES. You do have many, many, gifts from God, just take to time to open them.

Provisions

PROVISION

"GIVE US THIS DAY OUR DAILY BREAD"

IN THE NAME OF JESUS. I CONFESS WITH THE PSALMIST DAVID, I HAVE NOT SEEN THE RIGHTEOUS FORSAKEN, NOR HIS SEED BEGGING BREAD.

FATHER,I THANK YOU FOR FOOD, CLOTHING AND SHELTER. IN THE NAME OF JESUS, I HAVE STOPPED BEING PERPETUALLY UNEASY ( ANXIOUS AND WORRIED) ABOUT MY LIFE, WHAT I SHALL EAT AND WHAT I SHALL DRINK, OR ABOUT MY BODY, WHAT I SHALL PUT ON. MY LIFE IS GREATER THAN FOOD (( IN QUALITY)) AND THE BODY (( FAR ABOVE AND MORE EXCELLANT)) THAN CLOTHING.

THE BREAD OF IDLENESS (( GOSSIP, DISCONTENT AND SELF PITY)) I WILL NOT EAT. IT IS YOU, FATHER, WHO WILL LIBERALLY SUPPLY (( FILL TO THE FULL)) MY EVERY NEED ACCORDING TO YOUR RICHES IN GLORY IN CHRIST JESUS.

IN THE NAME OF JESUS, I SHALL NOT LIVE BY BREAD ALONE, BUT BY EVERY WORD THAT PROCEEDS FROM THE MOUTH OF GOD. YOUR WORDS WERE FOUND, AND I DID EAT THEM, AND YOUR WORD WAS TO ME A JOY AND THE REJOICING OF MY HEART.

AND THE WORD BECAME FLESH, AND DWELT AMONG US. JESUS, YOU ARE THE BREAD OF LIFE---- THAT GIVES ME LIFE, THE LIVING BREAD.

THANK-YOU, FATHER, IN THE NAME OF JESUS, FOR SPIRITUAL BREAD--- MANNA FROM HEAVEN.

THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN

THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN

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My World in Words: Falling Behind When I Should be Springing Ahead

My World in Words: Falling Behind When I Should be Springing Ahead

Falling Behind When I Should be Springing Ahead

I have been working on this book for about 6 months. I have not gotten very far...yet. I have had great things happen and a few bad things happen, that have gotten me alittle behind. One thing that I wold never change is the friends that I have met. And I was lucky enough to met 2 of my friends in person. I would not change that for the world. And I have met some wonderful people on Multiply, Yahoo 360 and through the course I am taking Holly Lisle How to Think Sideways. Those are the blessings I have received in the last 6 months. The only thing that I consider bad in my life right now is the surgery I am facing. Soon that will be history, and all will be wonderful. I have a great life, thanks to my father in heaven. God has blessed me more than I could ever thank him for. I am here now to let everyone know that I am going to be hitting the lessons hard for a little while. I have got to get caught up to get some work done. I will be having the surgery soon, I have postponed it enough. My doc is geting a little frustrated with me. He says I don't know what I am facing if I don't get this done. So I will be having this scheduled hopefully by the beginning of next week. I just want to let everyone know that I am going to be really busy this next week. Just remember I will be thinking of all of you everyday even if we are not chatting or sending messages, I will still be here if any of you need me. I love you all. I have got to get busy or this novel will never make it, and if this novel fizzles away, so will I. So I have got to get busy, it is Spring, the world is beautiful, everything is coming to life after a long winters rest and I think that I am too. I feel like I am blossoming right along with everything else and I while I feel this way I need to let it all out and write like I have never before. Please pray for me, that I can survive this week of working my tailend off, ( it wouldn't hurt to work off alittle more that) and get through the surgery successfully. I thank you all for your friendship, Nancy, Mickey, and my sweet UK mom, Jenny are such wonderful people I love you very much. And to the ones I am just beginning to know, I can't wait to get to know you better, Pearl and Rose, I am so happy to meet you. I have met so many great people though the best freind of all Nancy. Any of you that don't know her yet, I hope you all get to know her, you will be missing alot if you don't, she is an awesome person. She gave me the most wonderful quilt that she made herself. I have met her and her husband, they truly are great friends to have. She has truly changed my life. She is a blessing to me.
Well, I am going to get busy, I have alot of writing to do. I need to at least get alittle caught up before the surgery. Talk to you soon.
Cheerfully Lorri

Friends Are Great

I have some great friends here from Illinois. I met them through yahoo 360. And they are such awesome people. I would never have imagined that I would meet someone over the internet that was really, really as good as they are. I have heard of people meeting and even marrying someone they have met over the web, but knowing myself I never thought I would actually meet someone and become best friends with them. I wish everyone here could meet Nancy and Carl, they are awesome people. They are good down to earth folks. I am very sick and very poor, they came here not expecting for me to entertain them but to entertain me. We went out to the Grand Ole Opry, The Ryman Auditorium, and alot of great places to eat. They paid for everything, and it was their vacation. Now how wonderful is that? What great people. They even helped me with a financial problem that I was having.

I would love for eveyone on this internet to be lucky enough to have them as friends. Nancy made me a beautiful quilt, it is my most prized possession. I will always have a part of her, I hope I always have her in my life, and Carl too. He is an awesome fella. Friends are a very important part of my life. I have really never had friends like these two, I have two more from Yahoo 360 that are absolutely wonderful and it is a dream of mine to meet them one day also. Mickey and Jennie are also true and great friends to have.

I would have never imagined that the internet could bring me such joy. It brought me great friends.

Get it Together

I have got so many things to do. I totally forgot about the E-zine I want to do. And I have to learn about it too. I must get myself organized in my home and on this computer. I just have everything scattered, and I have too much going on here on the computer. Too many friend sites. I need to just tell the ones I am least involved in that I have to leave the site. I really like B/net, but I think that is one I am gonna let go. I am not close to those people and they are using a book that I don't have to follow along. I may get the book. I think it is a book to help writers.
I am not going to get anything accomplished if I don't get it together. I need to do lesson one again. I need to find and clear my work area, and organize the things I need. I have all the things I need, except organization. I will spend tomarrow organizing my home. Then I will organize the computer to be the way I need it to be. But the most important thing is by time with God. I must have my morning and evening time. I will ask Him to guide me on this journey. I feel that everything in life is a journey now. It is my life. My new life. The rest of my life. And I is gonna be a great ride, so I must prepare and be organized to prevent failure. And only God can lead me and teach me the Right way to do it.

I have a new journey tomorrow. So I need to go rest for awhile. And also, this journey will start smoke free. oooooog that is alittle scary for me. But with God's strenght it will be done.
God Is so awsome.

Site Searching

What a beautiful day we have had. The sun was shining so brightly. The temperature was about 75 and I nice breeze was blowing. I was cheerful as soon as I woke this morning. I immidiately wanted to thank God for this wonderful day. I read a few chapters in the Bible, about Esther having Hamam hanged. I need to learn more about that, I didn't read enough.

Then I went to B/net to see how things were going there. I am really trying to find a support group for writers. I was invited to join the Artist's Way Circle. They seem ok, but everyone in that group is reading a book called The Artist Way, and I do not have the book to join in the treads. I think I just need to stick to my HtTS threads. I have met really nice people there and they are very helpful and honest about my work. Most importantly we are all taking the same course so we understand what each other is going through. So far that has given me more inititive that any other groups. I went and searched and found I am just fine right where I am.

I am ready for lesson 5. I am excited about starting it. I have already read some. I need to get some organization developement going on in my life. I have always been a whirlwind, but I do need to make myself an area to work in. I am working at my kitchen table and I have nothing organized. My Bible study, My finances and just everything is on this table. So that is my next project before I go back to lesson 5. I wish I had a desk with drawers and shelves. Maybe one day. So now I need to figure out where to put eveything. That's gonna be a blast.

Well until next time, keep writing, keep that muse playing and listen. Pray for me.

My World in Word

Fairies, One of my projects in my writing course is going to be a book about a fairy that must come to the human world to do a good deed. All of the teenage fairies must do something good that they really don't want to do to earn their wing. This fairy despises human and their world.

To earn her wings a teenage fairy who despises humans and their world must become human herself to help an ugly duckling find her true beauty.

That is the sentence I am using for this one idea. In lesson 4 we had to make sentences for three of our ideas. I believe this one is the best I have so far. I am still working on my first idea. It is going to be a murder mystery/ghost?? story. I haven't decided about the ghost yet. But I am going to spend tomarrow revising that sentence, it is much too long right now. I am having trouble getting enough information that makes the sentence good without it being too long. But with the help of some of the other students I may be able to work something wonderful out tomarrow. Just too exhausted to work on it tonight.

Well I have finally found a place I can blog. It is all new to me and I am very excited to start.
I have started a course on writing. I have always wanted to write and now that I am disabled and have lots of time, I am going to write a novel, maybe even more. I had no idea where to start, but searched and sound a course and I really like it so far. I am only on he fourth lesson, but it seems to be going well. I am having alittle trouble with this lesson. We have to write sentences for three ideas that we came up with in the last lesson. Well I have one sentence for one idea, so yes, I am alittle behind. But I will get it done. I have a couple of "classmates" that work together with me, so we do help each other out. I don't know alot about writing, so I hope I can be of help to them too.
Went shopping today and spent alittle on myself, which felt good but yet I felt guilty too. I never spend money on myself. My children are grown so it is about time I started doing a few things for myself. I had fun. Well, gotta get to work. Goodbye until tomarrow.