The Best Friend I Ever Had

When I was very young I lost my daddy to divorce, and not long after I lost my mother to marriage and a new family. I really didn't realize what was going on in my life, I thought that something was wrong with me, afterall, my step father told me daily how stupid and ugly I was. Well I muddled through life, all my life just looking for love. I never found it. not until I was 47 years old.

I fell ill about 6 years ago. I could not work and my 12 year old daughter and I eventually became homeless. It was hard, but the hardest part is that I didn't have a real friend to turn to. OH I have my mother and brother, but they just as soon forget that I existed as to deal with me at all. I prayed to God for an angel. For someone that would really care. I really just gave up on people, I really did. When I got sick, even more people took advantage of me. So I just stayed away from people and I turned to the internet and began writing my book.

As most parents, I was having alittle problem with one of my girls and decided to ask Yahoo Answers, just to get a variety of suggestions. At this point in time, I really needed some different kinds of advice or ideas, nothing I was doing seemed to be working. So I ask my question ans submitted it to Answers and waited. It wasn't long at all and there was a very nice suggestion and a woman that wanted to know if she could email me or send an instant message. Her advice and a bit of her own story was really sincere, I could tell this person had a good heart. So she emailed me and soon we were on instant messaging with each other about every day.

That question that I ask, saved me. No, she didn't solve my daugther problem. She came into my life and brought such happiness to me. She was there for me whenever I needed a friend to talk to, she praised me when I did something good, but she also would let me have it if I didn't do what I should be doing. I need a very major surgery on my spine, total reconstuctive surgery, and I had to quit smoking first. Well I had smoked for 35 years, two packs a day, so I was like, on way. I never dreamed I would be able to quit, I didn't even wanna try. But she just got on me and let me know that she would get me if I didn't. She, being a non-smoker, still had the patience and understanding that I needed to make me strong. Then before I knew it, I was telling myself I have to quit for Nan. She will be so disappointed in me, so I worked extra hard at it. I quit and started back a couple of time, but thanks to my wonderful, caring friend I was able to finally quit smoking.

Everyone needs a rock that is as soft as satin to lean on sometimes. Yes, we all have God, He is always here for us no matter what. But God knew I needed love, real love from someone. Someone that would love me a good honest person, that would appreciate me for me, sick, poor, it didn't matter. Well Nancy is that person. And it is not because I am special that I got such a great friend, it's because she is the special one. She is so awesome, I remember once, I was suppose to meet a man, a friend that was another IM friend, and I was so nervous about it, we were only friends, but that is scary to me. Nancy and her husband Carl came all the way from Ill. to TN to be here with me to meet him. That was the first time I ever go to meet her. As soon as I saw her I saw the beauty of kindness illuminating around her. She truly had an aura of kindness glowing around her.

I had just started talking to her about Oct.2008 and met her in April 2009. She is so kind. She brought me a quilt that she had made from the scraps of all the other quilts she had made, that is the most beautiful quilt I have ever seen, and it is not like other quilts, it has a warm soothing safe comfort that no other quilt will ever have. When you wrap up in this quilt, you feel pure love.

Today is her birthday. I wanted to share her with everyone else. I don't think it is fair for me to keep her all to myself, so anyone who does not already know what an awesome woman that Nancy is, please be sure to get to know her. Your life will become an abundance of joy. All you need to do is contact her through this site, and I promise you, your life be become a life that has a true friend who has an abundance of joy to share with you too. I love her, deeply. She is by far the most wonderful friend that anyone could even imagine having. She is full of love, tenderness, kindness, and honesty.

She has changed my life. Thank you Nancy, and Happy Birthday.

It's your gift....open it.

As a child you had such dreams of the wonderful things you were going to be when you grew up, an actress, a singer, a doctor, lawyer, an airplane pilot, an artist, or a police officer. yes, so many things intrigued our young mind. Wasn't it fantastic?

There were also so many other gifts that God had to offer us, that are so awesome and they are our gifts, if we accept them. The gifts that would open the door for us to discover or rediscover your creativity and talents.

But where do you begin, how do we know what our gifts are? By offering an open heart and a willingness to serve you have begun the journey to discovering your talents and creativity.

We are offered by the Spirit to bring life to a work of art. Whether it be a painting, writing a novel, quilting, photography, or baking a batch of cookies from an old family recipe. It is a gift from the Spirit, yelling out, hey I am here, bring me to life, make me come alive. Almighty God offers the gift and it is up to us to become the bearer of the Works or to refuse.

Of course we can refuse. The first and greatest gift that God gave us is free will. Not even the angels in Heaven have free will. They saw the Glory and chose the passion of serving over free will. And this make us even higher than the angels. We had both free will and the passion to serve. Now our biggest problem is being left to our own deciets and devices.

Oh yes, we can say no. When the Spirit offers, we can say no, not right now, life it just to caotic right now, I just cannot take on anymore at this time, I cannot get it together enough right now, find someone else. The Spirit will. So the Great Creator moves on until a willing artist with the needed open heart and passion to serve accepts the precious offer to become the creator that will give birth to the gift that has been given them.

Remember, to begin our paths to the creativity of our lives offered by The Great Creator is an open heart and the willingness to accept the gift offered to us.

So .... when we say "no" the way it goes is your heartbroken, bewildered and furious that when you see that old high shcool friend that went on to college and became the nurse that you always wanted to be, but just couldn't get it together at the time to go to school, or that new fashion design that is exclusive in all the fashion magazines that you have still on the drawing board unfinished because you just couldn't get it just right. And when you see that best selling novel that is practically the same story that you and your muse have been writing in your head and mapping our for two years, but never pulled out that laptop to begin writing. Maybe your flipping through the pages of the latest Rachael Ray magazine and you see an award winning recipe that has been in your family for years, but you have been trying for years to perfect it so it would be just right.

So...when you used your free will and said "no" I am not ready find someone else, Spirit moved on and found the one that had the open heart and the willingness to serve and accept the gift given them, that they were to create and share their with the rest of the world.

But you are crushed that someone else brought to life the creative idea that is so similar to yours that your are truly freaked. Each of use came into being to carry on the re-creation of the world through our gifts offered to us by The Great Creator.

It isn't your mind, it is the Divine Mind. before anything else exist on earth, it exist fully formed in Spirit.

The bottom line is that the Work must be brought forth. The Great Creator does not play favorites. The Spirit only comes once for each Work seeking creative expressions through you, then moves on. If you don't do it someone else will. So, when a bolt of lightning or a subtle nudge hits you, pay attention. It only exist in your mind, realize that the Spirit will guide you one your way so you will be able to connect with the creative energy you need to create the gift that the Great Creator just gave to you to create.

But only for an infinitesimal proprietary moment, just long enough for you to have the willingness to open your heart, have the passion to serve, and accept the assignment and give thanks.

Isn't it absolutely wonderful? You can see the creation completely finished. It takes your breathe away.

For God...for yourself, say YES. You do have many, many, gifts from God, just take to time to open them.

Provisions

PROVISION

"GIVE US THIS DAY OUR DAILY BREAD"

IN THE NAME OF JESUS. I CONFESS WITH THE PSALMIST DAVID, I HAVE NOT SEEN THE RIGHTEOUS FORSAKEN, NOR HIS SEED BEGGING BREAD.

FATHER,I THANK YOU FOR FOOD, CLOTHING AND SHELTER. IN THE NAME OF JESUS, I HAVE STOPPED BEING PERPETUALLY UNEASY ( ANXIOUS AND WORRIED) ABOUT MY LIFE, WHAT I SHALL EAT AND WHAT I SHALL DRINK, OR ABOUT MY BODY, WHAT I SHALL PUT ON. MY LIFE IS GREATER THAN FOOD (( IN QUALITY)) AND THE BODY (( FAR ABOVE AND MORE EXCELLANT)) THAN CLOTHING.

THE BREAD OF IDLENESS (( GOSSIP, DISCONTENT AND SELF PITY)) I WILL NOT EAT. IT IS YOU, FATHER, WHO WILL LIBERALLY SUPPLY (( FILL TO THE FULL)) MY EVERY NEED ACCORDING TO YOUR RICHES IN GLORY IN CHRIST JESUS.

IN THE NAME OF JESUS, I SHALL NOT LIVE BY BREAD ALONE, BUT BY EVERY WORD THAT PROCEEDS FROM THE MOUTH OF GOD. YOUR WORDS WERE FOUND, AND I DID EAT THEM, AND YOUR WORD WAS TO ME A JOY AND THE REJOICING OF MY HEART.

AND THE WORD BECAME FLESH, AND DWELT AMONG US. JESUS, YOU ARE THE BREAD OF LIFE---- THAT GIVES ME LIFE, THE LIVING BREAD.

THANK-YOU, FATHER, IN THE NAME OF JESUS, FOR SPIRITUAL BREAD--- MANNA FROM HEAVEN.